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Welcome to "TESTIMONIES"

Here is the subject matter I have in mind:
"People Who Talk To Themselves Aren't Crazy, They're Actually Geniuses"

That quote was posted by JB Bardot- Written by Gigi Engle

"If I were my peach smoothie body butter, where would I be?" I say to no one while I search for my favorite lotion. Then: "Aha! Here you are. You rolled under my bed."

I talk to myself a lot. And I don't mean only in the privacy of my own home. I talk to myself while I'm walking down the street, when I'm in my office or when I'm shopping. Thinking out loud helps me materialize what I'm thinking about. It helps me make sense of things … GE

In my case I'm not a genius but I believe in talking to myself. What is going on is, one is most likely talking out loud to God. I always ended it like a prayer in the name of Jesus Christ till next time.

I went through a very difficult time from 1988 - 1992. Due to President Reagan's changes of privatizing government agencies throughout the country, state employees ended up in bedlam. Our jobs were suddenly shifted to become part of private corporations. They were still under the power of the governors but employees had to agree to either find other jobs or become private.

We had 5 years to make that change. Since I was too close to retirement, I was determined to stay in my position as a state auditor. The pressure from supervision was close to unbearable since they wished to hire auditors for a lot less pay like a third of what I was getting without having to go through lists as previously in the state system.They could hire their friends.

The agency was Workman's Comp. We were some 10 auditors who had to audit 80,000 businesses annually. Due to high $rates per employee's activity, the business owners were losing it and one business after another closed down. Many were unable to pay themselves. They seemed to have a heart for the people working for them because they had families that depended on them.

I'm telling you this to share the stress I was under from both ends, the supervisors and the business owners. We had to meet a quota of audits daily, were on the road state wide and wrote up the audits at night after gathering the information. Most auditors got a state car. Because of my age they told me to buy a car. They didn't think I would last in the job more than a month.

I came close to a nervous breakdown. Not only did President Reagan change government workers to go private, he changed the Social Security we were to get. I had worked in the private sector for 30 years, was eligible for my own, my husband's / widow SS when he passed away as well.

Due to the government pension, of which I had to buy 4 years with savings, they took the Social Security away leaving just enough to pay my monthly Medicare payment.

My college BA was in Psychology, Social Science and a BS in Education with a lot of correspondence courses in accounting which meant little. After three years of substitute teaching in elementary schools I gave up on a teaching job. They wanted people from other states. Local teachers were too boring for the kids.

I landed a job with state government in the profession that was meant for me in accounting for developmentally disabled children.

God wasn't going to let me down. He intervened a number of times to get me that job.

I learned early in life that we are not alone trying to deal with challenges that come along as early as we leave home, if we are lucky enough to be born into a good family.

I was born in Niagara Falls, NY and at three my parents went back to Germany only for me to come back to the U.S. at 16 alone. The American military occupied and announced that U.S. citizens had to go back to the U.S.. I never considered the consequences of what I might be faced with, suddenly without family, no money, homeless in New York.

I found out very quickly that I had a guardian angel who kept me from taking wrong turns but on the other hand people I trusted gave me incorrect advice. The struggle between good and evil became obvious early on.

In 1988 I decided to record my thoughts since I was driving alone, slightly unraveled about what to expect when knocking on doors trying to get to look at people's checkbooks etc.

My college education in psychology came in handy after all. I remembered lessons how to deal with client's problems. They didn't have any quick fixes of any kind except for lobotomies and shock treatments.

A person was to lay down on a comfortable couch and share their problems with the doctor without interruptions. I found out later Dr. Freud wrote that people were his clients for the rest of their lives. So much for cures. What I did learn was that one could help themselves by sharing one's troubles with oneself on a recorder.

In raising children that needed to be capable of dealing with their problems, I made sure when anything came up for them that was difficult to handle emotionally to insist they spill the beans to get it up and out of them. That wasn't always easy, but I insisted to get there to make sure they wouldn't keep building stuff in their minds out of proportion.

Today in 2017, my mind was again at a low point. In ministry energy drains daily wihout compensation. God meant for us to have church and socialize which is not possible on Internet. There is no time to recharge except sleep.

The news being what it is so negative isn't helping. The Republicans are not interested in making life easier for us little people. Many are laboring under depression which is one of our worst enemies. It takes away motivation.

Keeping our minds on projects of interest keeps that culprit away. Having run out of ideas I began listening to the recordings from 1988 on to 1992. Re-experiencing those days made me realize all the positive changes that had taken place since.

Because of the stress I was experiencing, I had gotten involved in Scripture, was listening to sermons and letting that dwell in my mind and even praying to the recorder and telling it my marital, job, parental and church struggles made me realize how fortunate I am today and to be thankful for God's loving care.

I was a Mormon at the time which caused problems to my marriage and parenting my sons. They didn't wish to go on missions :). Praise the Lord for giving us great advice in the Bible. We managed to survive everything as a family.

George and I were married 45 years when he went to be with the Lord.

One of my personal biggest problems was loneliness. Being married doesn't guarantee freedom from loneliness. We are social creatures, need friends and social activity of some kind. Joining a church is often not a solution since one walks in and out without getting to know anyone.

Pastors have tried to solve that by shaking hands saying something to each other but it doesn't change loneliness. Cults are very successful at filling that gap by getting people involved in the process without asking questions about where they come from or where they have been.

In Mormonism they involve the whole family in feeling important. From three years of age the children are expected to go in front of the whole congregations and share their experiences. The parents are assigned to many different jobs that develop in dealing with people over a lifetime. The members are expected to visit families to make sure all is well.

After 20 years God made me aware that the Mormon doctrine is not Christianity and I had to leave. Because they keep congregations at 600 one gets to know just about everyone involved. That made leaving difficult.

God had plans for me even though women are not to become pastors. The Holy Spirit let me know that everything had been written and all I had to learn was to publish it in newsletters, give programs in churches and homes and write a book about my experiences.

Since Mormons keep their congregations in the dark, they don't teach their doctrines. One has to find out by listening to conversations and hopefully find out a thing or two about what they believe.

Many Mormons are foreigners and have no idea what Mormonism is, as it was in my case. Because of work outside of the home, raising a family, and jobs in the church there was no time to look at their books. I simply believed that they were for real, since they called themselves the only true church.

To write about cults after I left meant to study the whole history and what their doctrines really are. It meant reading lots of books, going to conferences and joining former Mormon groups to learn how to deal with the future.

It meant buying and learning how to run equipment. There was to be no income since the Bible states that one better have the means to finish or not even start.

Praise the Lord for Internet which made it easier to collect and disseminate information.

My intention for this website is to help some of you overcome loneliness that has taken over. Many churches have gone to be with the Pope since he is intent on gathering all religions to himself and believers who are keeping up with what is going on find themselves having to separate from their churches.

I'm hoping with this website to help overcome some of the issues people have. What most of us don't realize is that we, who are born again believers, are in this together.

We are under attack from the evil side and trying to keep our sanity. False teachings are rampant. Now the Bible is tampered with. The left wing is growing by leaps attacking anything that relates to God of the Bible.

I wish to encourage people to share their story either by recordings such as 'mp3' or 'wav' files or in written form and I will post them on this website for others to listen to or read. Jesus told us in

Matthew 18:16 "But if he not hear thee, then take with thee one or two more, that in the mouth of two or three witnesses every word may be established."

God be with you,
Shalom, Rita Williams


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Set Free From Generationsl Curse

 Caught in the Mormon Matrix 1

Caught in the Mormon Matrix 2

Caught in the Mormon Matrix 3 

Caught in the Mormon Matrix 4

 Caught in the Mormon Matrix 5

The Bible Translation That Rocked The World
 Martin Luther
The Passionate Reformer
 Martin Luther Unstoppable


If you wish to participate send your file to: r421@earthlink.net


If the recording is too big to send by email put it on a disk.
I have USB Flash Drives that can be had free by requesting one r421@earthlink.net.
A recording can be put on the drive and shipped. Our address is:

Cephas Ministry

  • PO Box 351944
  • Westminster CO 80035-1944

  • Phone 303 452 1104 leave a message I'll call back.